arrrghhhhh i feel like smashing my head against a brick wall.
why are men so confusing?
why did he tell me to go to monto for 4and half days and go to my best friends engagement party.
and then when i did go on the second night i got the third degree via text message ! where are you? what are you doing? why wont you text me back? .
my thoughts! you know where i am ! MONTO.
what am i doing ? - well i am running around like a chook with its head cut off because i am helping my best friend by doing all the organising , so the best friend can enjoy her own engagement party and not have to worry about a thing.
why wont i text you back? well thats obvious cause i am busy and i cant hear my phone from 100mtrs away when it is stuffed in my hand bag and there is loud people and loud music and kids screaming.
i checked my phone at 11pm with all of these stupid questions and it completely ruined my night.
i came home a day early , im begining to wonder if i should have come home at all.
do relationships have to be this hard? he tells me to do something , i do it and then i am the worst person on the face of the earth.
some days i feel like throwing my hands in the air and screaming "FUCK OFFFFFFFFFFFF" i wait on this man hand and foot do every thing for him and then he makes me feel guilty for helping a friend.
i have dealt with this for 6 years and my patience is wearing very very thin.
why would a man think that i am cheating on him if i have put up with his shit for 6years already, i have never cheated in my life on anyone.
and the man himself has been married once before and cheated on his wife on his wedding day.
Now you tell me who should be worried about what who is doing? shouldnt i be the paranoid one?
and the more i think about the whole thing the more i get angry and want to shove a kitchen knife between his ribs.
or maybe i should just take a few vallium and got to bed for a few days.!!! please tell me why is it so hard for me to leave him?
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